[ She can do her best to hide it, but Emet-Selch can see the gesture all the same. Her height doesn't hide her irritation. ]
I would think that they align more readily that you, yourself, are willing to believe.
[ Since, in the end, they desire the same thing. the preservation of the world that they love. To save it and the people that live there. Hades will do whatever is necessary to meet that end. This little Warrior of Light would surely do the same.
Not that he is going to outright say all of that of course. Instead he offers a dramatic shrug and a sigh to go with. ]
You put words in my mouth. Not everything needs be about your behavior nor about simply desiring to irritate you. Perhaps I was watching merely to observe.
[ She would move the heavens if it meant to preserve what she had. Pluck the stars from the sky and destroy the moon if she needed to. Her family and friends were more important to her than her own life. That's what got her here, in this situation, in the first place and why she was so desperate to not think of what if she failed.
So she chooses her next words more carefully. ]
I meant about your concern, what was I doing that concerned you so much, Emet-Selch? [ she scrubs her face again and for a moment, she will wobble, but then straighten up and let herself soften even a faction. She does snort and laugh, though wisely chooses not to comment that just watching her to observe definitely counted as being creepy to her. ] You implied that my activities were concerning, enlighten me on why while we begin walking.
[ The Xaela does begin to move, though and she goes at a less hurried pace than her norm. ]
I am not going to apologize for finding you irritating, however. Something about... [ She gestures to all of him. Because while she may make it hard to endear herself to him, he makes it just as hard for her in the same way. She can't put her finger on what exactly makes his smugness and general existence so exhausting to her, but there's something. ] you, makes me want to punch you in the face any time you open your mouth and start looking too smug. But I will apologize for putting words in your mouth.
[ Oh he supposes that he can follow. He's done so before; her and her little group have had his companionship, if one wishes to call it that. ]
You are hardly the first to think of and express the need to commit senseless acts of violence against my person. Doubtful that you will be the last.
[ Because he refuses to acknowledge the more obvious implication that a statement like that means. Emet-Selch has refused to see it the moment that he had laid eyes on the girl proper. So he won't speak of it more than that.
What he will do instead is: ]
It would appear you are not resting well, hero. Now how can you bring back the night if you are burning the candle at both ends?
I pray that you give me a reason to be the last. I wish you on no one. [ She will not lie to him about it either. Though she does chose to drop the subject there and listen to his concerns. ]
I'll answer your question. [ Because if she's lucky, he may give her an answer to her worries without even realizing. She doubts she will be that lucky. ] The short answer is that I will bring night because I have to. There is no universe where I could ever accept failure being an option. No amount of lack of sleep or injuries will stop me from that.
The long answer is that my current state is because I'm trying to avoid thinking too deeply on something I overheard. Hard to think about it if I don't give myself time to. [ She rubs her jaw and furrows her brows as she struggled to find more words that sufficed to explain why she kept herself so busy, wearing herself down to the point where she was willingly playing nice with an Ascian she trusted about as far as she could throw. ] Distracting myself got away from me, I'll say that, but as you saw very briefly, I run on anger and spite. Should something actually be on fire, I will likely get angry about it and find some sort of energy to do something about it.
What is stopping you? Come, strike me down as you have down to my brethren. Surely the vaunted Warrior of Light is capable of such a feat even in this condition?
[ Go ahead. Fight him. She wouldn't be doing herself any favors in doing so, of course. Emet-Selch wonders why she has even agreed to all of this in the first place, if she is just looking for a reason to attack him. To end his miserable life. They don't really need a reason, do they? He has provided all the reasons that they should need, just by nature of being an "Ascian."
They don't trust him, with good reason, just as he does not trust them in return. So he walks behind, hands behind his back. He won't talk about accepting failure. It's a sentiment that they share. Fortunately or unfortunately, he has time to rest. A couple of years will not change their long-term plans. ]
You could always regale me with what you've heard. I have done very little to keep any knowledge from you and yours. Perhaps I might shed some light on those dark thoughts.
[ She pauses in her walk, turning to half look at him and simply look extremely amused by what he just suggested. Instead of answering, she shakes her head, laughing quietly at him and turns away to return to walking.
Because despite her clear mistrust and knowledge of Ascians, he hasn't actually given her a reason and told him that point blank. That and she is well aware that fighting him would be more trouble than it was worth. A waste of both of their time in the long run, so instead she just keeps quiet and mulls over her next choice of words.
Though, Caligi fumbles with her pack out of no where, digging blindly before she pulled out a few wrapped treats because she thinks food will give her ample time to think of how to phrase her worries without actively exhausting herself more. Out of sheer habit, she offers one of the cookies to Emet-Selch and when she realizes what she's done it is much too late to take it back without him declining it first. ]
I overheard that my aether is becoming akin to a Lightwardens, so naturally I don't want to think much about my chances of actually becoming one. [ She may as well be blunt, she doesn't have any reason to dance around the subject, but she doesn't sound like she was accusing him of anything at least. Not even suspicious, just curious if that was why he was so eager to help her and her own despite their mutual distrust. To hasten her journey into becoming a Lightwarden. ] It's more than a little selfish, but I'm not actually concerned with the state I'd leave most in afterwards it happened. Mostly just one person.
[ She takes a bite of her own cookie, waiting to see if the other would take the offered one or not and thinks about how to continue. ]
So, tell me, in all of your apparent abundant knowledge, what do you think are my chances of becoming one should I defeat the final warden?
[ Caligi laughs, hmm? So she must know that it is a futile thing. The girl at least has something of a brain. Emet-Selch does his best not to be annoyed by the lack of taking his bait.
Though he pauses as she holds out one of the cookies. One would think that he wouldn't take something that the girl has offered. Yet... As the Ascian walks by her, he snatches up that cookie. Continues to walk by and makes something of a show out of taking that first bite. ]
One person? You are not concerned about what becoming a Lightwarden would do to this Shard or the Source, but you think of how it could affect just one?
[ Interesting. He doesn't call it selfish. In truth, it suits his needs just fine. However... He couldn't think to do that. His life is for his people. What hero could not also do the same?
But if she wants an answer... ]
If it is my opinion you want? I believe that defeating the final Lightwarden will be the undoing of your soul. Even I can see the cracks and fissures that are barely being held together by that child's power. I sincerely hope that you can manage another one of your miracles.
[ Which he is being sincere about. Hades doesn't know why he's hoping, but it is. ]
[ At his taking of the snack, she almost surprised herself with another laugh though it was definitely tempered down by his words. ]
Oh, I'm aware what it'll do to the First and Source, but if it happened I can't bring myself to worry about the bigger picture without worrying more over someone who I would be leaving to pick up the pieces, whom I love very dearly. I don't expect you to understand the worry of making someone you love be the one to end the monster you become.
[ Corona is her rock and the idea of leaving him to kill the monster she became and then still have to deal with the aftermath in her place, alone - it hurts more than any wound could. Because she knows that while she may fall, it wouldn't be the end. Not immediately, at least and she has hope in the Scions succeeding at the very least of putting her out of her misery. Because the other path would be a far worst fate.
She takes another bite of her cookie and then mulls over his next words. Though it did confirm some lingering suspicions she had about his goal for helping them. Not enough to warrant her lashing out in anyway, just acceptance. ]
Thank you for being honest with me. [ And she means it, yet again. Color her surprised. ] It's sad that you're the only one willing to tell me these things to my face and that's what manages to make me feel better about it.
[ Finishing the cookie, she reaches back towards her pack and pulls out another, though this time it's only one. She does seem more at ease though, red eyes focused on the distance and she lengthens her strides to try and keep up with the taller male. ] I still plan on going through with killing the final warden. I told you before, failure is not an option I will accept. I was rushing around trying to stop myself from thinking about the what-ifs, not debate whether or not I'd actually go through with it.
[ Because she needs to say that, though not exactly for him. She needed to say it outloud to fully accept her choice and the risk she was taking. ]
Oh, and for the record, if I wanted to fight a Galvus, I'd fight the one actually worth my effort. You are not he. [ Because whether he wants to see it or not, she is still Azem and Azem can be a childish brat when she wants to be.
Her comment has her smug after everything else, because if he wanted to be a prick - she should happily be able to return it. And the previous honesty was slightly too honest for her to be comfortable with without any barbs traded in the end. So she moves to walk in front of him, munching on her cookie proud of herself. ]
[ Oh he will allow her to talk and not feel the need to correct anything at all. Mostly he just ignores it. Part of him believes that Caligi is just attempting to get a rise out of him; she wants to see if she can get something from him. Information or an emotional response, more like.
Now he doesn't think that it matters whether or not he hides his true intention or not. Emet-Selch knows that this is now too far along to stop. It would also appear that the girl is too stubborn anyway. She will go through with it and simply trust in everyone else to be able to manage the mess in case things go awry.
How dreadfully boring.
All of it is, from her trying to goad him multiple ways, to just this steadfastness. ]
Why I think you managed to speak more than me and that, I'll admit, is quite the feat. How tiring it must be, to flap that jaw and feel confident about the words that fall from those lips while knowing nothing at all.
[ Like he cares if she'd rather fight Zenos. Have at it, little girl. All of this changes nothing, much less his opinions of this Warrior of Light.
Just another weak little mortal with base needs. ]
[ At failing to get a rise from him she shrugs, only a little annoyed and somehow only partially it was directed at him. When she's had proper rest, she'd likely find herself privately embarrassed for being so talkative - to the point where Emet-Selch tells her she's talking more than he does and that will be a whole new can of worms she will pretend never happened and she had thought for a brief moment -
Honestly, she isn't sure what she thought anymore, but it was something about the way he sounded so sincere before in hoping she would pull off another feat worthy of the title she actually rather hated being called, Warrior of Light. She clenches her jaw and then just sighs and once again shakes her head at him, though there is no laughter that follows.
They're not friends, not comrades and she shouldn't be so forthcoming with him. She needed to remember that, that there is no reason for her to try and seek something from him that he doesn't have. She doesn't even know why she even bothered to invite him to walk with her at this point, beyond not wanting to be alone with her thoughts. ]
If 'flapping my jaw' is so tiring, I can't imagine how much sleep you need at this point. You talk far more than I do on average and still manage to look like you've only gotten an hour of rest every time we meet. [ The words lack any real bite to them, they only sound sharp. Just a blunt force used to smack uselessly against a rock that seemed to want to move, but only when it wanted remain directly in front of her goals and hinder her progress.
The second cookie is finished in silence, though not out of spite for once. Just her being caught up in the idea that she really and truly was not looking forward to the twelve hour sleep she had waiting for her when she managed to get somewhere she felt would suffice enough to work without having to go back to the Crystallarium.
The world spins in her vision and she does stop walking, forcing her to bring her hand to her face and rub at her eyes hard enough to see white spots behind her lids. ]
I need to sit for a while. [ And that does actually annoy her, because she knows that she can keep going she just hates that in order to do that without risking a fall she needs to sit down and wait for the world to stop spinning. After pulling her hand away from her face, she finds a semi-flat surface and sits down to wait for her eyes to right themselves.
A hell of her own doing and she expects the headache to come following after rather soon. ] You're free to leave if you want, I will likely be making many stops to sit. If you're going to stay for some reason, do you want another cookie for your trouble?
[ Oh he had been sincere. Entirely sincere. The most ironic part of this entire ordeal is that Emet-Selch has been nothing but honest and sincere. He truly does want to come to some sort of understanding, seeing if things could actually work out. There is a part of him wants to be understood and then actually see if maybe he can be proven wrong. That these fragments, these parts of people could actually rise up and be entrusted stewardship of the star too.
Yes, there is the other part to this. The back-up plan that is really the only true plan in all of this.
And yet, in his mind, his sincerity had been met with a rather sarcastic commentary in return. Unneeded, really. Had he given a truly smart remark in the first place then perhaps it would have been warranted. There are other reasons too, of course, and he doesn't want to think on them. So he doesn't. ]
You forget that I was asleep. Blissfully so, before you and your Scions decided to become so problematic that Elidibus had to cut it short. I had earned my rest and you lot have taken it from me. So if you wish to blame someone for my irritable countenance, then look no further than to yourselves.
[ Not that he's going anywhere even as the girl sits. Oh he could. Hades is tempted to pretend to leave. It would serve the child right, continuously poking at things that are beyond her ken.
Instead he waves his hand in a dismissive manner as she talks about sitting and then about the probability of her needing to maintain a pace like this one. ]
Perish the thought. Should I abandon you now, I'd never hear the end of it from your Exarch.
[ She grits her teeth as he spits vitriol about the actions taken by her and her own to defend her life, her star and way of life against men who wanted to destroy it being the reason that he was currently awake and making it her problem. She takes in slow deep breaths because getting angry right back will not make things better here. It will make things worst for her in the long run, but it is a struggle to keep her fury contained. ]
You will be waiting an eternity for an apology from me, Emet-Selch, because I'm not the one who woke you up. Do not blame me for your mood and lack of sleep, because your current status of being awake is due to your friend's failure to account for resistance from others. Blame them for not being smarter, not me or my own for trying to stop our world from being destroyed.
[ Caligi sighs again, once again forcing herself to calm down because that was enough to make her raise her voice despite her attempts to stay steady.
When she's able to relax again, the Au Ra begins to dig through her pack to pull out what she believes to be her last cookie and holds it out to him. It's not a peace offering, not in the least, he just simply didn't decline the offer she made originally. ]
Suit yourself. But I had no intention of telling anyone that I had to be saved by you. My pride has suffered enough today.
[ The red head watched him and chooses to turn the cookie into a peace offering in the end after all. ]
I'm not good with vulnerable emotions. If I offended you with my jab about Zenos, I will apologize for that. I was uncomfortable and resort to picking on people to avoid more of them. You telling me the truth about my odds did in fact help and I do appreciate that. Now take the fucking cookie.
An apology without anything behind it is useless and empty. I need it not. As for assigning blame, there is plenty to go around. Of course I blame the others for being sloppy. However, I am rather used to their incompetence. This is hardly the first time I have played my part only for the other side of things to be incomplete.
[ Caligi can raise her voice at him all she wants. Emet-Selch is much better at getting under her skin than vice versa. Right now he merely stands where he is, arms crossed over his chest as he continues to watch her. He has little idea of what she is actually doing. Perhaps just looking for something to keep her busy and focused on something that isn't him?
It would hardly be surprising wouldn't it? He refuses to roll his eyes. ]
Again, you speak as though your precious Exarch is not watching whenever he can spare a moment. In fact I wouldn't even be surprised if he is privy to this conversation.
[ But then the girl does surprise him. The apology doesn't matter. He hadn't been offended at all. Who cares about the opinion of one so below you after all? Yet Caligi talks about vulnerability. This is more valuable to Hades. ]
I already had one of those things. It wasn't that impressive. [ Well now he's just being difficult on purpose. ] Your words have been noted all the same.
[ She gives him the most withering stare she could muster for the reminder that she truly is never alone, but refuses to allow him the satisfaction of hearing her admit the current perceived likelihood of it. Instead focusing on the moment of surprise she does see in the other and then the words.
At the end of his comment about her words being taken in, she hurls the cookie towards his head and starts laughing at his show of being difficult. It's not a malicious throw in the least, more one that someone would throw at a person whom just said something groan-worthy. She shakes her head and it takes a few seconds for her to stop laughing. ]
The cookie's still yours. You don't need to eat it now. It'll keep for a few days and it's the last one any ways. If you don't want it, give it away.
[ The thrown cookie, however, stops midair. It's never going to reach its intended target. Groan worthy or malicious doesn't make too much of a difference to him. ]
Why would I give away a gift bestowed upon me by the esteemed Warrior of Darkness? T'would be rude.
[ If it had hit him, she would have been surprised, as it stands however, that was about on par with what she expects from him. She just chuckles again at his words and rubbed at her forehead as she debated the chances that she wouldn't topple over immediately if she began rising. ]
Ah, keep your mocking flattery for someone who doesn't see it for what it is, Emet-Selch. [ It's said with mainly amusement, but as she pulled her hand away from her face to give him a long look. ] I will, however, admit that you can keep gaining favor by calling me the Warrior of Darkness.
Because it is, ultimately, your favor that I so desperately seek.
[ Though he does send the cookie away through a rift. It's not like he's going to keep it on his person. However it does mean that Emet-Selch isn't quite throwing it away either. More than likely it will be held until he decides to actually eat it. Or throw it away. But it will not be in a place where she'll see what he does with it. ]
Are you rested enough to keep going, since you're becoming rather sassy...
Why else would you be watching me so keenly? You have to have something else to occupy you.
[ But she does nod and begin standing up. She counts her blessings in that she did not wobble and that her vision has steadied. She does cast another Aspected Benefic on herself, however, just to take care of anything remaining from her close call now that she could feel she wasn't completely running on empty. ]
I can return to biting your head off, if you prefer? No skin off my teeth to return to being hostile instead of trying to play nice.
Lack of anything better to do since we have called a truce of sorts? Though if it bothers you so much, then need I another reason for continuing to do so? After all, it does not seem you have taken offense knowing that your dear Exarch does the same.
[ Just pointing that out! But if she is to stand and walk, then he will follow. There's hardly a point in doing nothing but standing around. He'll at least see that she gets back to her companions. Or at least to the edge of town. ]
You need a hobby. Get one that doesn't involve reminding me of the amount of privacy I lack in any form. And yes, I have a problem with it. I'm just aware that like telling you too, telling the Exarch will just lead to me banging my head against the wall.
[ At least she's aware that her attempts to tell him to stop watching her are going to lead no where and mostly for show. There's no comfort in it, but at this point fighting it with actual teeth isn't going to do anything but take her attention from important matters.
She will start walking again and leading them on their way. A small part of her finds it kind of funny that Emet-Selch is walking her back to civilization and after she sleeps, she'll probably find it less funny that she had garnered herself a babysitter. ]
Blame it on the lack of sleep, but I am, in fact, making an attempt to at least try and behave nicely after earlier jabs and my own hostility.
I think you may respond better when I don't have as many defenses up and I don't actually want to fight you, despite what you may think. You also implied that you're likely just as tired as I am and that's just sad.
[ At least she thinks so. That brief moment of surprise had her considering that his original suggestion of being nicer to him may be more fruitful in the long run and a more petty side of her hoped it annoyed him. ]
I wouldn't go to that extreme. You have your privacy, I assure you. Quite arrogant to think that I would spend my every waking moment watching you.
[ But he can't say anything about the Exarch. Hades has no clue whether or not the other is actually watching at every waking moment. He probably is, or nearly all the time. The Crystal Tower has the means to and if it has been dialed into Cal's specific signature? Well.
Once the girl starts to walk, Emet-Selch follows after. His pace is more of a stroll and, in truth, he will likely disappear the moment she steps foot into town. Hades is not about to suffer the presence of other mortals. ]
Wouldn't you be tired after dancing to the same tune and script for twelve thousand years? The hero and the villain, locked in eternal battle. Ever are they to defend their respective sides, Light versus the Darkness. It's all so very dull after a time.
[ Maybe it's not a bad idea. But Hades will still be suspicious. He believes she will be too. ]
I don't like to be watched without my consent at all, Emet-Selch. [ She rolls her eyes at him, though there is a little comfort in the fact that he does in fact give her some sort of relief from his gaze at points. She won't tell him that directly, though. But it is noted. ]
I'll tell you something few know, just to make things very interesting. If Lahabrea had come to me before the Scions did, I would have easily been swayed to his side. I enjoy the chaos of things. Order is boring, it has its uses, sure, but I don't find myself drawn to it naturally. So, yes. I do in fact see where you'd be tired of the push and pull between the two forces.
[ She shrugs, because while true and she has to regrets on feeling that way, it's still a risky thing to admit and honestly, it is better than her trying to correct him on her opinions on light and dark being the epitome of good and evil. ]
Now that is just too bad. You are a hero. People are going to be watching you without your consent for the entirety of your life.
[ It is interesting to note that she would have just as readily come to Zodiark rather than Her, depending upon who had approached the girl first. What he doesn't much care for, is the fact that Cal would think that they are all about chaos.
They aren't. Far from it. Even the chaos that they create is scripted. Artificial. Created and crafted to serve a purpose. It is a game of chest kept in strategic stalemate until it isn't needed to be. ]
Lahabrea would never have thought to. Quite the arrogant one, that man.
Yes, but the masses I can ignore. Creepy old men with dubious morals and goals? I'll pass.
[ That would be where he would be wrong. She didn't think they were just chaotic forces, she would have just enjoyed the chaos that would have ensued from her actions. Lived in it and enjoyed every moment, done everything she could to fix it when she realized the mistake she made, however and that would have been a whole new brand of chaos for her to navigate.
But yes, her opinion on good and evil is more closer aligned with order and chaos than simply just darkness and light, as she happily stayed in the dark and didn't think she was particularly evil. But she's also not sure if Emet-Selch could even hold the title of evil despite the things he's done. ]
I'll admit, there are moments where you make me miss dealing with him. You are infuriating, to the point where I would rather not fight you. And I don't know what that means yet.
Would've been interesting if he tried, though, but I'm not known for making good or safe decisions if left alone.
[ Well that's not something he had anticipated. Emet-Selch isn't sure he knows what to do with that information. She may end up not wanting to fight him? Does she anticipate that she will need to? He supposes that this bit of truth isn't shocking. The girl and the Scions likely expect it. ]
I see. You actually like me, whereas you had no such emotions towards Lahabrea. Therefore it was much easier on your little heart to deal with him in the manner your friends would like to deal with me.
[ Is he going to rub that in a little yes. Because in truth? It bothers him. ]
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I would think that they align more readily that you, yourself, are willing to believe.
[ Since, in the end, they desire the same thing. the preservation of the world that they love. To save it and the people that live there. Hades will do whatever is necessary to meet that end. This little Warrior of Light would surely do the same.
Not that he is going to outright say all of that of course. Instead he offers a dramatic shrug and a sigh to go with. ]
You put words in my mouth. Not everything needs be about your behavior nor about simply desiring to irritate you. Perhaps I was watching merely to observe.
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So she chooses her next words more carefully. ]
I meant about your concern, what was I doing that concerned you so much, Emet-Selch? [ she scrubs her face again and for a moment, she will wobble, but then straighten up and let herself soften even a faction. She does snort and laugh, though wisely chooses not to comment that just watching her to observe definitely counted as being creepy to her. ] You implied that my activities were concerning, enlighten me on why while we begin walking.
[ The Xaela does begin to move, though and she goes at a less hurried pace than her norm. ]
I am not going to apologize for finding you irritating, however. Something about... [ She gestures to all of him. Because while she may make it hard to endear herself to him, he makes it just as hard for her in the same way. She can't put her finger on what exactly makes his smugness and general existence so exhausting to her, but there's something. ] you, makes me want to punch you in the face any time you open your mouth and start looking too smug. But I will apologize for putting words in your mouth.
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You are hardly the first to think of and express the need to commit senseless acts of violence against my person. Doubtful that you will be the last.
[ Because he refuses to acknowledge the more obvious implication that a statement like that means. Emet-Selch has refused to see it the moment that he had laid eyes on the girl proper. So he won't speak of it more than that.
What he will do instead is: ]
It would appear you are not resting well, hero. Now how can you bring back the night if you are burning the candle at both ends?
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I'll answer your question. [ Because if she's lucky, he may give her an answer to her worries without even realizing. She doubts she will be that lucky. ] The short answer is that I will bring night because I have to. There is no universe where I could ever accept failure being an option. No amount of lack of sleep or injuries will stop me from that.
The long answer is that my current state is because I'm trying to avoid thinking too deeply on something I overheard. Hard to think about it if I don't give myself time to. [ She rubs her jaw and furrows her brows as she struggled to find more words that sufficed to explain why she kept herself so busy, wearing herself down to the point where she was willingly playing nice with an Ascian she trusted about as far as she could throw. ] Distracting myself got away from me, I'll say that, but as you saw very briefly, I run on anger and spite. Should something actually be on fire, I will likely get angry about it and find some sort of energy to do something about it.
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[ Go ahead. Fight him. She wouldn't be doing herself any favors in doing so, of course. Emet-Selch wonders why she has even agreed to all of this in the first place, if she is just looking for a reason to attack him. To end his miserable life. They don't really need a reason, do they? He has provided all the reasons that they should need, just by nature of being an "Ascian."
They don't trust him, with good reason, just as he does not trust them in return. So he walks behind, hands behind his back. He won't talk about accepting failure. It's a sentiment that they share. Fortunately or unfortunately, he has time to rest. A couple of years will not change their long-term plans. ]
You could always regale me with what you've heard. I have done very little to keep any knowledge from you and yours. Perhaps I might shed some light on those dark thoughts.
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Because despite her clear mistrust and knowledge of Ascians, he hasn't actually given her a reason and told him that point blank. That and she is well aware that fighting him would be more trouble than it was worth. A waste of both of their time in the long run, so instead she just keeps quiet and mulls over her next choice of words.
Though, Caligi fumbles with her pack out of no where, digging blindly before she pulled out a few wrapped treats because she thinks food will give her ample time to think of how to phrase her worries without actively exhausting herself more. Out of sheer habit, she offers one of the cookies to Emet-Selch and when she realizes what she's done it is much too late to take it back without him declining it first. ]
I overheard that my aether is becoming akin to a Lightwardens, so naturally I don't want to think much about my chances of actually becoming one. [ She may as well be blunt, she doesn't have any reason to dance around the subject, but she doesn't sound like she was accusing him of anything at least. Not even suspicious, just curious if that was why he was so eager to help her and her own despite their mutual distrust. To hasten her journey into becoming a Lightwarden. ] It's more than a little selfish, but I'm not actually concerned with the state I'd leave most in afterwards it happened. Mostly just one person.
[ She takes a bite of her own cookie, waiting to see if the other would take the offered one or not and thinks about how to continue. ]
So, tell me, in all of your apparent abundant knowledge, what do you think are my chances of becoming one should I defeat the final warden?
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Though he pauses as she holds out one of the cookies. One would think that he wouldn't take something that the girl has offered. Yet... As the Ascian walks by her, he snatches up that cookie. Continues to walk by and makes something of a show out of taking that first bite. ]
One person? You are not concerned about what becoming a Lightwarden would do to this Shard or the Source, but you think of how it could affect just one?
[ Interesting. He doesn't call it selfish. In truth, it suits his needs just fine. However... He couldn't think to do that. His life is for his people. What hero could not also do the same?
But if she wants an answer... ]
If it is my opinion you want? I believe that defeating the final Lightwarden will be the undoing of your soul. Even I can see the cracks and fissures that are barely being held together by that child's power. I sincerely hope that you can manage another one of your miracles.
[ Which he is being sincere about. Hades doesn't know why he's hoping, but it is. ]
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Oh, I'm aware what it'll do to the First and Source, but if it happened I can't bring myself to worry about the bigger picture without worrying more over someone who I would be leaving to pick up the pieces, whom I love very dearly. I don't expect you to understand the worry of making someone you love be the one to end the monster you become.
[ Corona is her rock and the idea of leaving him to kill the monster she became and then still have to deal with the aftermath in her place, alone - it hurts more than any wound could. Because she knows that while she may fall, it wouldn't be the end. Not immediately, at least and she has hope in the Scions succeeding at the very least of putting her out of her misery. Because the other path would be a far worst fate.
She takes another bite of her cookie and then mulls over his next words. Though it did confirm some lingering suspicions she had about his goal for helping them. Not enough to warrant her lashing out in anyway, just acceptance. ]
Thank you for being honest with me. [ And she means it, yet again. Color her surprised. ] It's sad that you're the only one willing to tell me these things to my face and that's what manages to make me feel better about it.
[ Finishing the cookie, she reaches back towards her pack and pulls out another, though this time it's only one. She does seem more at ease though, red eyes focused on the distance and she lengthens her strides to try and keep up with the taller male. ] I still plan on going through with killing the final warden. I told you before, failure is not an option I will accept. I was rushing around trying to stop myself from thinking about the what-ifs, not debate whether or not I'd actually go through with it.
[ Because she needs to say that, though not exactly for him. She needed to say it outloud to fully accept her choice and the risk she was taking. ]
Oh, and for the record, if I wanted to fight a Galvus, I'd fight the one actually worth my effort. You are not he. [
Because whether he wants to see it or not, she is still Azem and Azem can be a childish brat when she wants to be.Her comment has her smug after everything else, because if he wanted to be a prick - she should happily be able to return it. And the previous honesty was slightly too honest for her to be comfortable with without any barbs traded in the end. So she moves to walk in front of him, munching on her cookie proud of herself. ]
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Now he doesn't think that it matters whether or not he hides his true intention or not. Emet-Selch knows that this is now too far along to stop. It would also appear that the girl is too stubborn anyway. She will go through with it and simply trust in everyone else to be able to manage the mess in case things go awry.
How dreadfully boring.
All of it is, from her trying to goad him multiple ways, to just this steadfastness. ]
Why I think you managed to speak more than me and that, I'll admit, is quite the feat. How tiring it must be, to flap that jaw and feel confident about the words that fall from those lips while knowing nothing at all.
[ Like he cares if she'd rather fight Zenos. Have at it, little girl. All of this changes nothing, much less his opinions of this Warrior of Light.
Just another weak little mortal with base needs. ]
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Honestly, she isn't sure what she thought anymore, but it was something about the way he sounded so sincere before in hoping she would pull off another feat worthy of the title she actually rather hated being called, Warrior of Light. She clenches her jaw and then just sighs and once again shakes her head at him, though there is no laughter that follows.
They're not friends, not comrades and she shouldn't be so forthcoming with him. She needed to remember that, that there is no reason for her to try and seek something from him that he doesn't have. She doesn't even know why she even bothered to invite him to walk with her at this point, beyond not wanting to be alone with her thoughts. ]
If 'flapping my jaw' is so tiring, I can't imagine how much sleep you need at this point. You talk far more than I do on average and still manage to look like you've only gotten an hour of rest every time we meet. [ The words lack any real bite to them, they only sound sharp. Just a blunt force used to smack uselessly against a rock that seemed to want to move, but only when it wanted remain directly in front of her goals and hinder her progress.
The second cookie is finished in silence, though not out of spite for once. Just her being caught up in the idea that she really and truly was not looking forward to the twelve hour sleep she had waiting for her when she managed to get somewhere she felt would suffice enough to work without having to go back to the Crystallarium.
The world spins in her vision and she does stop walking, forcing her to bring her hand to her face and rub at her eyes hard enough to see white spots behind her lids. ]
I need to sit for a while. [ And that does actually annoy her, because she knows that she can keep going she just hates that in order to do that without risking a fall she needs to sit down and wait for the world to stop spinning. After pulling her hand away from her face, she finds a semi-flat surface and sits down to wait for her eyes to right themselves.
A hell of her own doing and she expects the headache to come following after rather soon. ] You're free to leave if you want, I will likely be making many stops to sit. If you're going to stay for some reason, do you want another cookie for your trouble?
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Yes, there is the other part to this. The back-up plan that is really the only true plan in all of this.
And yet, in his mind, his sincerity had been met with a rather sarcastic commentary in return. Unneeded, really. Had he given a truly smart remark in the first place then perhaps it would have been warranted. There are other reasons too, of course, and he doesn't want to think on them. So he doesn't. ]
You forget that I was asleep. Blissfully so, before you and your Scions decided to become so problematic that Elidibus had to cut it short. I had earned my rest and you lot have taken it from me. So if you wish to blame someone for my irritable countenance, then look no further than to yourselves.
[ Not that he's going anywhere even as the girl sits. Oh he could. Hades is tempted to pretend to leave. It would serve the child right, continuously poking at things that are beyond her ken.
Instead he waves his hand in a dismissive manner as she talks about sitting and then about the probability of her needing to maintain a pace like this one. ]
Perish the thought. Should I abandon you now, I'd never hear the end of it from your Exarch.
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You will be waiting an eternity for an apology from me, Emet-Selch, because I'm not the one who woke you up. Do not blame me for your mood and lack of sleep, because your current status of being awake is due to your friend's failure to account for resistance from others. Blame them for not being smarter, not me or my own for trying to stop our world from being destroyed.
[ Caligi sighs again, once again forcing herself to calm down because that was enough to make her raise her voice despite her attempts to stay steady.
When she's able to relax again, the Au Ra begins to dig through her pack to pull out what she believes to be her last cookie and holds it out to him. It's not a peace offering, not in the least, he just simply didn't decline the offer she made originally. ]
Suit yourself. But I had no intention of telling anyone that I had to be saved by you. My pride has suffered enough today.
[ The red head watched him and chooses to turn the cookie into a peace offering in the end after all. ]
I'm not good with vulnerable emotions. If I offended you with my jab about Zenos, I will apologize for that. I was uncomfortable and resort to picking on people to avoid more of them. You telling me the truth about my odds did in fact help and I do appreciate that. Now take the fucking cookie.
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[ Caligi can raise her voice at him all she wants. Emet-Selch is much better at getting under her skin than vice versa. Right now he merely stands where he is, arms crossed over his chest as he continues to watch her. He has little idea of what she is actually doing. Perhaps just looking for something to keep her busy and focused on something that isn't him?
It would hardly be surprising wouldn't it? He refuses to roll his eyes. ]
Again, you speak as though your precious Exarch is not watching whenever he can spare a moment. In fact I wouldn't even be surprised if he is privy to this conversation.
[ But then the girl does surprise him. The apology doesn't matter. He hadn't been offended at all. Who cares about the opinion of one so below you after all? Yet Caligi talks about vulnerability. This is more valuable to Hades. ]
I already had one of those things. It wasn't that impressive. [ Well now he's just being difficult on purpose. ] Your words have been noted all the same.
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At the end of his comment about her words being taken in, she hurls the cookie towards his head and starts laughing at his show of being difficult. It's not a malicious throw in the least, more one that someone would throw at a person whom just said something groan-worthy. She shakes her head and it takes a few seconds for her to stop laughing. ]
The cookie's still yours. You don't need to eat it now. It'll keep for a few days and it's the last one any ways. If you don't want it, give it away.
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Why would I give away a gift bestowed upon me by the esteemed Warrior of Darkness? T'would be rude.
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Ah, keep your mocking flattery for someone who doesn't see it for what it is, Emet-Selch. [ It's said with mainly amusement, but as she pulled her hand away from her face to give him a long look. ] I will, however, admit that you can keep gaining favor by calling me the Warrior of Darkness.
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[ Though he does send the cookie away through a rift. It's not like he's going to keep it on his person. However it does mean that Emet-Selch isn't quite throwing it away either. More than likely it will be held until he decides to actually eat it. Or throw it away. But it will not be in a place where she'll see what he does with it. ]
Are you rested enough to keep going, since you're becoming rather sassy...
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[ But she does nod and begin standing up. She counts her blessings in that she did not wobble and that her vision has steadied. She does cast another Aspected Benefic on herself, however, just to take care of anything remaining from her close call now that she could feel she wasn't completely running on empty. ]
I can return to biting your head off, if you prefer? No skin off my teeth to return to being hostile instead of trying to play nice.
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[ Just pointing that out! But if she is to stand and walk, then he will follow. There's hardly a point in doing nothing but standing around. He'll at least see that she gets back to her companions. Or at least to the edge of town. ]
This is you "trying to play nice" as you put it?
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[ At least she's aware that her attempts to tell him to stop watching her are going to lead no where and mostly for show. There's no comfort in it, but at this point fighting it with actual teeth isn't going to do anything but take her attention from important matters.
She will start walking again and leading them on their way. A small part of her finds it kind of funny that Emet-Selch is walking her back to civilization and after she sleeps, she'll probably find it less funny that she had garnered herself a babysitter. ]
Blame it on the lack of sleep, but I am, in fact, making an attempt to at least try and behave nicely after earlier jabs and my own hostility.
I think you may respond better when I don't have as many defenses up and I don't actually want to fight you, despite what you may think. You also implied that you're likely just as tired as I am and that's just sad.
[ At least she thinks so. That brief moment of surprise had her considering that his original suggestion of being nicer to him may be more fruitful in the long run and a more petty side of her hoped it annoyed him. ]
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[ But he can't say anything about the Exarch. Hades has no clue whether or not the other is actually watching at every waking moment. He probably is, or nearly all the time. The Crystal Tower has the means to and if it has been dialed into Cal's specific signature? Well.
Once the girl starts to walk, Emet-Selch follows after. His pace is more of a stroll and, in truth, he will likely disappear the moment she steps foot into town. Hades is not about to suffer the presence of other mortals. ]
Wouldn't you be tired after dancing to the same tune and script for twelve thousand years? The hero and the villain, locked in eternal battle. Ever are they to defend their respective sides, Light versus the Darkness. It's all so very dull after a time.
[ Maybe it's not a bad idea. But Hades will still be suspicious. He believes she will be too. ]
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I'll tell you something few know, just to make things very interesting. If Lahabrea had come to me before the Scions did, I would have easily been swayed to his side. I enjoy the chaos of things. Order is boring, it has its uses, sure, but I don't find myself drawn to it naturally. So, yes. I do in fact see where you'd be tired of the push and pull between the two forces.
[ She shrugs, because while true and she has to regrets on feeling that way, it's still a risky thing to admit and honestly, it is better than her trying to correct him on her opinions on light and dark being the epitome of good and evil. ]
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[ It is interesting to note that she would have just as readily come to Zodiark rather than Her, depending upon who had approached the girl first. What he doesn't much care for, is the fact that Cal would think that they are all about chaos.
They aren't. Far from it. Even the chaos that they create is scripted. Artificial. Created and crafted to serve a purpose. It is a game of chest kept in strategic stalemate until it isn't needed to be. ]
Lahabrea would never have thought to. Quite the arrogant one, that man.
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[ That would be where he would be wrong. She didn't think they were just chaotic forces, she would have just enjoyed the chaos that would have ensued from her actions. Lived in it and enjoyed every moment, done everything she could to fix it when she realized the mistake she made, however and that would have been a whole new brand of chaos for her to navigate.
But yes, her opinion on good and evil is more closer aligned with order and chaos than simply just darkness and light, as she happily stayed in the dark and didn't think she was particularly evil. But she's also not sure if Emet-Selch could even hold the title of evil despite the things he's done. ]
I'll admit, there are moments where you make me miss dealing with him. You are infuriating, to the point where I would rather not fight you. And I don't know what that means yet.
Would've been interesting if he tried, though, but I'm not known for making good or safe decisions if left alone.
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I see. You actually like me, whereas you had no such emotions towards Lahabrea. Therefore it was much easier on your little heart to deal with him in the manner your friends would like to deal with me.
[ Is he going to rub that in a little yes. Because in truth? It bothers him. ]
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Eh fuck it I'm not logging out into Cal just for this tag, straight to Zenos I go
lmfao i'm just slowly getting around
Same man same
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